there’s something about choosing one thing and sticking with it — not choosing it for any specific goal or end result, but simply the fact that you just love it. following through with a passion for as long as it lasts has always brought me a unique kind of return.
of course, i’ve had my moments (plenty!!) of picking up a hobby just because it felt cool. i liked the idea of telling someone i did the thing more than actually doing it. the appeal was performative, not rooted in any real curiosity or joy.
lately, i’ve been pulling away from that mindset. i’ve instead been giving myself more creative space to explore different interests — ones that are genuine — fully leaning into what sticks and letting go of what doesn’t. in doing that, i’ve found myself unintentionally hyperfixating, diving deep into the thing that sticks without overthinking it.
right now, that’s writing.
there’s something about writing that just makes sense to me. i don’t write to tell other people — in fact, most people close to me probably don’t even know i started this. it’s a quiet thing. a way to untangle the thoughts that shuffle around in my head: the ones that show up when i’m alone, the ones sparked by a great conversation, or the ones that have always just been there in the background.
i’ve always been the type to think five steps ahead and focus all my energy on what something leads to. and sure, having purpose is important. but lately, i’ve found peace in the opposite: doing something just because it feels good. writing, for me, doesn’t need to have a deeper reason. it doesn’t have to mean anything beyond what it already is.
i don’t know why i’m writing this or if anyone will even read it. but the act of letting myself try something new without worrying about perception or the “why?” behind it has been freeing.
to be honest, i have been hyperfixating. what i once used to scribble in a bullet journal, i now type into substack immediately — starting with an idea, coming back to it, letting the words flow until it all finally clicks. and if along the way, someone else happens to make sense of a similar thought through my words, that would be a lovely bonus.
that’s all for now..
- manvi :)